Generally I am a pretty upbeat person. Today I am discouraged.
Generally I welcome the rain because I equate it with refreshment. Today I welcome it because it fits my gloomy mood.
Generally I love my business and look to the future with hope. Today I can’t shake the thought that I am working too hard to be where I am with my company.
Please tell me I am not the only one who feels this way. Please tell me that one day it will all click and people will be begging to buy things from me. Please tell me that day will come soon. Very soon.
Because this is hard. This is lonely. This STINKS!
What a depressing post this is! It is much more raw and vulnerable than I am used to. But maybe this is what I need—to admit I don’t know it all. In fact, I know very little about marketing or running a business. I have read some books and tried some things, but what I am trying is not working like I want it to.
Maybe tomorrow will be better. Maybe next week will be better.
I remember being in a boat out on the river when a huge storm came up. I hadn’t known rain could hurt, but it sure does when it pelts you like it did us that day. I remember wishing I had some of Jesus’ power so I could calm the storm like He did. I even prayed for it. But He didn’t calm the storm right when I asked. He allowed me some time to just hold on to the sides of the boat and rock with the waves until it passed.
Maybe today I just need to hang on to the sides of my boat. Maybe I just need to ride out the storm of doubts and discouragement.
Tomorrow may be better. Tomorrow may not be better. Regardless of whether tomorrow is better or not, I need to remember that I am not still on that river scared for my life riding out the storm. That storm passed eventually, and I have to believe this one will as well. Until then, my grip is tight.
